Im down.... :(

I felt sth pulling me apart
apart from my friends which i seldom meet n contact
i dunno what happen to them
i dunno what to chat with them
we are seems like living in 2 different world now
i felt sth indeed
a strong feeling showed me that im actually nth for them
im just someone who will be in need when they need someone to fill up the empty space
they have their own life which are different from mine
some found their partners n wont bother their friends
suddenly
i think i decided or indeed have an idea
i should just be a visitor to that site
not someone who TRY to be active
coz nobody will bother what im crapping there
at least
this blog belongs to me
i can write whatever i want
i dont care whether there is anybody reading or not...
i just wanna express my feeling
my friends or i should say my former classmates?
maybe i think former classmates will suit the situation more...
hmm....
no matter how
i wont be very sad
dont worry
because i have my group of new friends who will cheer me up everyday
they are really cute n funny
i love hanging around with them
yet
i feel down when i see such big difference among these 2 groups of friends
especially when my friends from butterworth or kulim came to find them out
i feel worse
coz my friends wont do such kind of things
or maybe i dont have such good buddies as they have
hmm....
shall end here