Why it is so so so unfair?
Why there is so much different?
Why im always the one being forgotten?
Why i can just dream n couldnt make it realistic?
Why im a January baby?
Why i have to be alone most of the time?
Why nobody bother bout me?
Why i couldnt get branded stuff as present?
Why i dont get to celebrate my 18th?
Why im not special?
Why im so ugly?
Why im always the one who ask ppl out for gathering?
Why ppl dont miss me?
Why i dont have someone to listen to me?
Im very upset today...
The whole day im not in good mood at all....
i have no class at all....
lecturer was sick....
went gurney with friends...
tried a MNG black dress....
so nice~~
but im not allowed to buy any clothes...
bought a ROXY purse for my housemate as her bday present....(sharing with friends... )
honestly, im jealous... (*very)
went redbox to celebrate somor...
came back to hostel around 9 sth...
bathed n hand-washed my clothes... ( not special at all... my normal routine... )
called mummy...
asking her whether i should skip friday class or not...
coz tmr class until 2pm only...
n just 2 hours class tmr.... tired...
told her bout my housemate's bday celebration n present stuff....
just cried out suddenly....
it reminded me about my bday 1 month ago...
so much different...
i know i sound too childish in hoping for celebration so desperately...
cry also useless...... i still wont get anything....
whenever i meet such situation,
i'll think... what if i have a bf... surely it wont be like that....
dream...
i cant stop my tears now.... grr...
i hate myself for being so childish....
i hate myself for not being friendly....
Why there is so much different?
Why im always the one being forgotten?
Why i can just dream n couldnt make it realistic?
Why im a January baby?
Why i have to be alone most of the time?
Why nobody bother bout me?
Why i couldnt get branded stuff as present?
Why i dont get to celebrate my 18th?
Why im not special?
Why im so ugly?
Why im always the one who ask ppl out for gathering?
Why ppl dont miss me?
Why i dont have someone to listen to me?
Im very upset today...
The whole day im not in good mood at all....
i have no class at all....
lecturer was sick....
went gurney with friends...
tried a MNG black dress....
so nice~~
but im not allowed to buy any clothes...
bought a ROXY purse for my housemate as her bday present....(sharing with friends... )
honestly, im jealous... (*very)
went redbox to celebrate somor...
came back to hostel around 9 sth...
bathed n hand-washed my clothes... ( not special at all... my normal routine... )
called mummy...
asking her whether i should skip friday class or not...
coz tmr class until 2pm only...
n just 2 hours class tmr.... tired...
told her bout my housemate's bday celebration n present stuff....
just cried out suddenly....
it reminded me about my bday 1 month ago...
so much different...
i know i sound too childish in hoping for celebration so desperately...
cry also useless...... i still wont get anything....
whenever i meet such situation,
i'll think... what if i have a bf... surely it wont be like that....
dream...
i cant stop my tears now.... grr...
i hate myself for being so childish....
i hate myself for not being friendly....
5 comments:
actually u r nt childish..
u js wn to gt smthg u wn onli..
bt dn 4gt u hv "us" around u..
so dn cry d ok?
be happy always..:)
well..just be strong..everything will be fine..^^
studying outside is like that.
learn to be independent,
this is the biggest period for you to actually learn,
how to find yourself for your future.
be optimistic.
damn you Penang and Taiping is just 40mins drive!
u see me?! =.=
to crazybread: ok~ i'll try my best to stay happy always...
to desmond: thanks~
to yuan : kl n ipoh just about 2 hours drive... hehe.... but i think im better now compared to the period in nilai... will try my best to become an independent one... :D
rourou....
its ok to feel sad...
but things happen due to many reasons.
remember tat datin get sick..
all of us in happy mood...
trust me..
i understand yr feeling cz i've been in yr place for quite a while..
stay strong, be happy and jz enjoy life....
Remember o..
u cn either choose to sad or jz happy go lucky...
gambateh o!!!!!!!!!!!!
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