Love?

I really dont know what is love indeed... A few years back, i thought i understand what is love... I waited for someone for 4 years... It is a long and sad time... HE is really a perfect man ( or just boy )... Good-looking, kind and caring... But of course, this type of so call perfect man will have a pretty girlfriend... So, i am the one who will hide behind the tree to look at him secretly...( of course i did not do so... this will just happen in those drama)

For that 4 years, it is quite suffering for me... Whenever i saw him with his pretty girlfriend, my heart will feel the pain... I almost cried every night that time... Trying to find so many excuse to phone him... Just to let him remember about me...

But, this year, he is still with his pretty girlfriend... I dont know what to do than waiting... So, i start to think... Will it be any good result from this foolish wait? Is it worth to wait for him? Finally, i decided to give up... Just treat him as my friend... If can, i hope he will be my best friend... I will keep this as a secret to him forever... I wont tell to spoil our friendship... I did write something so call lyrics for this decision...

《放弃。幸福》
我是真的很爱你
所以我希望你幸福
就算自己痛哭
泪流我也不在乎

因为我知道
我明白
爱并不代表拥有
所以我不说
我沉默
让你快乐地生活

我选择放弃
不是因为我懦弱
因为这样能让我解脱
让我有释重负

我真的爱你
希望我这个决定
能够让彼此都感到幸福

我不确定这个决定是否很正确
但我确定能自由离开你身边

希望我的放弃
能让你幸福


PS: dont think that perfect man is you after reading this article... pLease... You are NOT...


**** rourou****