Maple

The first time in my life... Really fresh to me... I started to play maple story a few days ago... Well, it looks quite fun to me since i never play any online game before that... The greatest game i thought is monopoly and pokemon... So, you can guess how i feel when i play maple lar...

Although it is quite time-consuming, i quite enjoy playing it after working... Quite relaxing... Haizz.. but very shy to say that my level is really low... Around 1 lvl up per day... shh... dont spread out this to others after you read this post ya...

I'll share some feelings when i play maple next time lar... Hmm... My next post should be sth bout how i celebrate my bday i think... Hope that day will be a surprising one lar...

Wow! 1 month more only...

Since now at taiping doing nothing, i try to countdown a lot of big big days... such as my friendS's birthday, chinese new year and also my birthday... haha... CNY is just around one month left... CNY is the festival i hate and like the most...

Just because of this festival, i never have 团圆饭with my family since my parents were busy working... If you ask me do u enjoy your meal during 除夕夜, i'll tell you i dunno... i never have the chance to try... During that day, i'll also busy helping my parents... I really hate CNY... hate it... This year, the routine will also be the same... working and working... packing and packing those hampers... haizz... Just now i asked my mom, " why we never receive any hamper from friends?" This question will appear in my mind when CNY is around the corner... I know how to pack a hamper but i dunno how to open it... Sounds funny..

Although i hate it, i like it the most too... Few months before CNY, i can start to buy a lot of new clothes with the reason of i start to keep for new year... And, i can receive angpau, which become my income of the year... haha... This year i think will be happier because friends are working with me... Yeah... Ee xian, serena, desmond and diamond... Finally got people can accompany working d... For so many years, i were working with different ppl that i dunno... Feel a bit weird actually...But this year, no this kind of feelings d... :)

What i hate is obviously more than what i like.... See? CNY coming... but i am not really happy... Please... Dont arrive so fast... I am not ready yet...

* from today onwards will be a lot of friend's and mine birthday... 13th, 14th, 16th, 17th, 18th, 23th, 25th, 31st...a lot right???

$$$

Every moment, i am thinking what to do for my own future... I have to make my plan so that it will not burden up my parents... Now, i know what is the most important thing in life... Not love, its money! One can live without love but not money... Sometimes, i used to say that, if the problem can be solved by using money, then it will not be a problem... But, this cant be used for my situation now... I need a lot of money to fulfill my dream yet to success... Just when my dream is fulfilled, success will come next... Money, money, money.... Is there any course that i like but dont have pay so much money? After searching around, still none... If you wanna go outstation to get your degree, it will be 2 or 3 times more than the fee you study in Malaysia... haizz... what can i do?

Few more days later, i will start working with my parents.... Then, in february, maybe with my uncle... I have to work harder to earn some pocket money for myself and my dream laptop too... Hmmm... Feeling like wanna go n interview a job for my weekends... Grabbing money is my task for these few weeks... Good luck to myself...

2007

This year, year 2007 is ending soon... Today is 26th, so 5 more days to go for this year... Throughout this whole year, i am quite satisfied with what i had done... I go through this year with sad and happy feelings... This year is an important year in my life too... Graduated from secondary school... That means, i shall prepare myself to face the life for tertiary education... In year 2007, i also make some changes towards my hair... But it just stand for a few months... Erm... i also make a big changes towards my soul... I know the importance of having friends, communicating more with friends, and forget about sad things...

From the 1st day of Form 5 life till now, i felt like losing my friends... Friends are further and further away from me... Some, left for work and some, left for study... Even my handphone rang lesser and lesser... haizz... The 1st few months of f5, i really enjoy it... Chatting nonsense with my neighbours, create funny and cold jokes, helding endless parties with many many excuses, buying presents for friend's birthday, talk loudly during tuition class... we spent our precious time wastely... haha...

When graduation day coming closer and closer, we start to treasure our time... We started to do everything that will be our long term memories... We sang song during graduation day... Although things didnt go on smoothly, it makes us more united... we didnt quarrel at all... to be frank, i did cried for several times bcoz i didnt know that our class can do such thing... we are famous with our selfishness de ma... really touched by our acts...

Then, during SPM, everyone seems like going to eat their books before going into the hall... haha... nice to look at ppl when they are concentrating... the atmosphere in the hall is really... hmm... hard to describe through words.... 笔墨难以形容... haha... that day after BC paper, everyone planning to go for games... seems like the last day of SPM d... Luckily, we still can communicate through internet and our 5sc1-2 site...

2007 is going to end soon...... my next post should be on new year resolution... oops... i havent achieve my resolution for this year... okok, i'll use the days left to achieve it.... I'll tell u all what i've done before 2008 starts...

Life=Bored?

Today is about two weeks after my SPM... Everyone was saying that life after SPM will be very relaxing, exciting and fun... I am now living the life of "after SPM"... BUT, i dont feel like exciting and fun... OK, it can be said as very relaxing... This is because I have nothing to do other than my daily routine--- sleep, online, eat... Oh... My life changed from a tension one to a relaxing one but i feel it very boring...

All my friends are gone for their vacation... Some of them went Shanghai, some went west of Malaysia... But for me, i stayed at this raintown... haizz... If I were to ask my parents for a vacation, they will just bring me to either Ipoh ( still Perak state!!!) or Penang... To be frank, i hate to go these places... I visit there too often, especially Ipoh... Even i close my eyes, i know which way to go in the shopping complex...

About my future, i still blur with it... My uncle told me not to spend so much money just to get a degree... I know... But, i dont know where to find a college to study a degree of my favour with cheap cost... Haizz... If you wanna me to do so, you must tell me the way what...

I am now looking forward for christmas eve... We have some programmes... haha... I hope I can really meet my friends and enjoy the xmas eve, so that i wont feel that bored... Hmm... See you guys that day...

单眼皮。双眼皮(First Post all in Chinese)

从没仔细，
观察你。。。
就这样，
时间溜走了。。。

虽然说，
欣赏你。。。
可是，
连你是单眼皮还是双眼皮，
也不清楚。。。

上天也许是公平的。。。
从前的单眼皮，
变成双眼皮。。。
我会知足的。。。
所以，
退缩是唯一借口。。。
唯一证明。。。
证明我的世界不会为你颠倒，
不会为你而难过。。。

但是，
我希望，
可以知道，
你是单眼皮还是双眼皮。。。
答应我，
好吗？

Memorable Trip...

After going the 2 days 1 night penang trip, my life is too boring now... The first time in my life, i didnt sleep for 2 days... BUT, the second day really feel like sitting on a boat... almost pengsan... haha...

During that trip, we did visited some places, such as the fort cornwallis, aquarium, "guan yin ting" and of course shopping mall... Hmm... 1 more thing that cause the trip to be so memorable is the apartment guard... Always scold us... Complain us... Make us no mood to continue our eyes blinking game... Angry with him d....

Oh ya... Chu jie, Gim chee, Ah leong, zhen ying and me went to watch a korean horror movie... that movie really deep... dunno what it talks about... And some part really horror... haha... so they all laughed at me coz i'll turn my face towards zhen ying side when im scared... ^_^ Then, we watched "Golden Compass" the next day... We had a bigger group... But, i slept a few times when watching... too sleepy d lar... but my neighbour, mr jeffrey didnt notice bout that until i told him... haha...

I didnt bought much things there... Just a tweety bird necklace and the photo i took with zhen ying... it looks quite cute to me... haha...

I miss all of you... really...


**** rourou ****

What i want to do after SPM...

I planned a lot of things to do after SPM examination...

Firstly, i am going to take my diploma examination for piano again... I have to put more effort as i dont want to repeat the history...

Then, i want to plan for my further studies... I still dont know what course to take and where shall i go... Haizz... Although it is a bit too late, i still have to think about it... Whether i like science or maths... I have to make a choice...

Next, i need to go to work at my parents shop... Luckily they did not ask me to go other place to find job... I am more used to the environment there...

After that, i must improve my broken English... A SPM leaver at least must know how to speak fluent English, i think... I have to work harder... But, i still dont know what way can improve it...Hmm... I have to think about it....

If i fulfill all my resolutions above, that means it is time to further my studies in either college, form 6 or matriculation... So, i must quickly think of a course to take and find more information about it... I WANT TO PASS MY DIPLOMA!!!haha... :)


****rourou****

Bad Effects of SPM

SPM examination is going to end soon.... Next Tuesday will be my last paper---Bahasa Cina... Well, SPM had been started from 12th of November until now... It makes my life a bit different and to my hormones too...

Firstly, when SPM is on going, guess what pops out from my face? YEAH... Its pimples... About 5 to 6 pimples popped out... This make me scream and shout in front of the mirror, my mom and also my friends.... BUT, this makes them felt irritated because just because of 5-6 pimples, one can shout and scream.... I think they should have one question to ask me.... Rou, please go and see others face.They should have more than 6 pimples... ^_^''' OMG! Nobody in this world can really understand my feelings... The only better things in me is just that face.... Haizz.... Hope can find someone to share my sadness....

Secondly, whenever i online during SPM period, everyone will nudge you and start to ask, " How is your examination? Tomorrow no papar to sit for? Why are you so lazy and didnt go to study har?" Please.... I choose to online to relax my mind but i have to type so many words to answer all those question which are actually repetition...

Well, actually there are much more but i think they are not so serious as the above... But i cant deny that SPM brings some benefits for me too, such as i dont have to eat outside food because my mom will cook herself, i dont have to do house chores as i said i want to study, i dont have to do anything as though i am the queen of the house.... hahaha...

I dont really hope SPM to end because this is the time i can be together with my friends... TOGETHER studying, laughing and feeling nervous... I like that feel.... Really...

**** rourou ****

Love?

I really dont know what is love indeed... A few years back, i thought i understand what is love... I waited for someone for 4 years... It is a long and sad time... HE is really a perfect man ( or just boy )... Good-looking, kind and caring... But of course, this type of so call perfect man will have a pretty girlfriend... So, i am the one who will hide behind the tree to look at him secretly...( of course i did not do so... this will just happen in those drama)

For that 4 years, it is quite suffering for me... Whenever i saw him with his pretty girlfriend, my heart will feel the pain... I almost cried every night that time... Trying to find so many excuse to phone him... Just to let him remember about me...

But, this year, he is still with his pretty girlfriend... I dont know what to do than waiting... So, i start to think... Will it be any good result from this foolish wait? Is it worth to wait for him? Finally, i decided to give up... Just treat him as my friend... If can, i hope he will be my best friend... I will keep this as a secret to him forever... I wont tell to spoil our friendship... I did write something so call lyrics for this decision...

《放弃。幸福》
我是真的很爱你
所以我希望你幸福
就算自己痛哭
泪流我也不在乎

因为我知道
我明白
爱并不代表拥有
所以我不说
我沉默
让你快乐地生活

我选择放弃
不是因为我懦弱
因为这样能让我解脱
让我有释重负

我真的爱你
希望我这个决定
能够让彼此都感到幸福

我不确定这个决定是否很正确
但我确定能自由离开你身边

希望我的放弃
能让你幸福


PS: dont think that perfect man is you after reading this article... pLease... You are NOT...


**** rourou****

Puppy love

This is what i found out from my dear puppy....

These few weeks during my SPM examination, every night, about 11 something, a black dog ( i think it should be a female) will appear in front of my gate... Hmm... They are dating i think.... They will walk around my house since my puppy is inside the house.... Barking around...

At first, i thought that dog will just appear for ONCE... But, who knows, it comes so often... Almost everyday, every night.... And, this makes my dog so happy until he is willing to stay outside to wait for his so call friend( or i should call it as his girlfriend )... Funny right??

After this incident, i found that what is so call puppy love.... For human or for puppy, it is the same... LOVE.....


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First Post

OK, since it is my first blog, i make it short and brief. Just to introduce myself as the owner of this blog. I am not pretty, not intelligent, not too quiet, not too talkative, not good in English as well...Your mind may come out with a question now... Why this girl introduce herself with nothing good? Trying to act humble? Well, i am really this kind of people... So please believe...

Hmm... I have quite a number of interests... Playing piano, reading, blogging, chatting, watching drama and much more... In addition, i love my dog... Well, i shall say it is a puppy because it's size is really small although it is 2 year old...

Ok, thats all in my first post in this blog... Good luck everyone!!!

**** rourou ****